>>15992
I don't know. I think I might have autistically hyper-focused on drawing, and somewhere along the way of trying to keep a hold of it, I lost what I loved about it. I've always been scared of a coming day when I would realize that I don't care as much anymore and drop it just like any old autistic hobby.
I still kind of believe I care about drawing ponies and hold it closely to my heart, but for all I know, that could just be some kind of sunk cost feeling. I've tried to internalize as much possible advice on my mindset and motivation with drawing, but none of it matters if I'm deluding myself about still having that itch.