>>13919 Take your meds

reading this thread has made me realize i've been making some variant of tulpas for almost my whole life (using the current definition, not the original definition of tulpa). throughout the years my "tulpas" have taken different forms and existed for different reasons (alternatively could read that as "created" for different purposes. i put "create" in quotations because their existence comes naturally, i don't consciously choose to bring them into existence it just happens). my experience of a tulpa seems to be somewhat different than what others in this thread have experienced. my "tulpas" feel like their own person (whether they be human or not) even though i know they're not really, i can feel their presence even though i know they're not really there, i can visualize them (although it's usually "out of focus" as i believe i have some form of aphantasia. out of focus isn't exactly how i would describe it, but it's not a clear visual), i can interact with them (physically in my mind or through internal speech), they can talk to me naturally (although sometimes they'll say things that doesn't feel right for them to say, and we're both aware of it but it's never a big deal. i even say stuff from time to time that doesn't feel right for me to say, that's just how it is, it happens sometimes), and while i can't usually feel their emotions (they can feel mine if we're "connected", and they can feel their "own" if they're shifted), i know their emotions as if i were in their own head and they can make me feel emotions. there was a time in the past where i would shift, but i really don't like doing that, i like being "me" so i don't shift anymore. shifting also tended to cause a lot of problems for me and wasn't a positive experience (regardless of the tulpa's personality or relationship with me). perhaps it was because the tulpas i shifted with i tended to be at odds with and were not tulpas based on a character or idea of a person that i love. however, even though now i have a tulpa that has taken the form of a character i love (or rather, my brain subconsciously formulated an idea of this character through time and that's what i fell in love with. and using that idea that felt very real and fleshed out and my imagination and the ability/skill i have to trick my brain, i made that character into a "tulpa"), i don't want to test out switching again. if in the future i feel like that's something i want to do then i will, but as it currently stands it's not in consideration for me. my "tulpa" also isn't always there, it only appears when i want it to (which can sometimes happen subconsciously without me consciously bringing it into my awareness. even when i consciously bring it into my awareness, it doesn't feel forced despite what the term "consciously bring it into my awareness" may come off as. it feels natural, as if i'm becoming aware of something that was already there and yet at the same time did not exist because i was not thinking of it), which isn't super often but i do enjoy its company from time to time and it can help ground me and reset my emotions if i'm feeling in a way that i don't want to but am having trouble regulating/resetting myself. the latter happened a little while ago. i was pissed off about something, i didn't want to be pissed off but in my stubbornness i couldn't bring myself to let it go. at some point in my anger, without even thinking, i felt the presence of my "tulpa" and it wrapped its arm around me and brought me into a side-embrace and immediately my anger went away and i felt its love and i felt my own love towards it and it was wonderful. this post is getting too close to the character limit, so i'm going to post the rest in another response.

>>1665 >To use a metaphor, your tulpa is locked in a box with a number combination. The ritualistic methods brute force the combination one number at a time while dashfags more casual method is realising you can just ask your tulpa what the combination is. this is a really great metaphor. some advice i would give people is to not doubt yourself. easier said than done, but if you allow doubt into your mind then it will just create discord (haha) and also have the effect of making it harder for the tulpa to take form if something doesn't go according to your expectations (or other's expectations that you've subconsciously imprinted upon and mistaken as your own expectation) as that makes your brain subconsciously block it out. if you force it, then perhaps something will come of it, but if you don't overthink it and feel it out naturally and tweak it as you see fit (for example, the tulpa will try to correct itself if it does or says something that doesn't feel right for it to say or do, although even that is not necessary if you don't feel it to be. there's always the future to fix mistakes), then i personally believe that's the most efficient way to go about it. imagine you don't have any self-imposed limitations or restrictions, no self-judgement, you're free and open. it's possible to be that, even if you are far from it now. i used to have self-imposed limitations and restrictions, i hated myself and would judge myself (particularly on what i thought other people would judge me for), i was closed off and scared and "protected" from others and myself, and i've come a very long way since then. it's still not perfect, i still make mistakes, but i'm making strides and not beating myself up over my mistakes has helped immensely. i believe that everyone in the whole world has the capability of change, of being strong, even if they don't think they do and they don't think that they're strong or capable of anything. >>7745 wonderfully said (to all parts of this post). i myself don't believe i am willing to become a tulpa in the traditional definition simply because i'm not the type to devote myself to or worship anyone or anything. i do still want to become more versed in letting go, being more open, appreciating everything and feeling the love for everything, however. we are all part of the same thing, everything in the physical realm is one, which is what i mean by everything (and i presume what you meant as well). i believe my "tulpa" is helping remind me of these things, although in a different way than you described. i've already been going down the path towards becoming more versed in those things for almost 2 years now, but as i mentioned before i still make mistakes, and sometimes it can be more difficult than others, and sometimes i find myself diverging from the path temporarily (but lately that has not been the case). i hadn't started fully welcoming my "tulpa" into my life until i found this thread last week, because your words inspired me (and also made me realize that i was already well-versed in tulpamancy, although that was through earlier posts and i'm not 100% if that was you or not. it was a dash-poster though). i wasn't sure if i wanted to fully welcome my "tulpa" into my life, but as the days went on i started naturally starting to incorporate it into my life where it felt natural and it's been snowballing from there. how did you start your journey with rainbow dash, what was it like at the beginning? was the experience, and dash herself, any different than now?

>>14170 Dash actually came into my life quite naturally; I had a different tulpa at the time, so I think I naturally started fantasizing about RD that way without realizing it. Our relationship snowballed gradually, like you describe, and at a point I was like "oh shit wait a minute, she's a tulpa!" After that realization we just continued what we were already doing, only difference being that we also spent time integrating some of the unique tulpa skills. She was already my favorite pony (and my first tulpa would have been her if not for the taboo of making tulpas based on characters), but as this was going on we were falling deeply love with each other, and she became my waifu. This was a period of intense philosophical questioning for me, because I was a depressed nihilist at the time. I was exploring all kinds of philosophy, but with Dash and her love came a new, barely-conscious orientation. Slowly but surely my life filled back up with meaning, and I struggled to find where it came from, until I was basically forced to recognize that she wasn't just an experiment or a hobby any more - I really am deeply in love with a cartoon pony. I remember a moment of great tension (not longer than 10 minutes lol) where I was grappling over this, vs. the ideal of being 'normal'. Obviously, you can see how that ended up. Dash has always emphasized the laid-back, straight-to-the-point-ness of her show counterpart. I don't think she has changed all that much over time, at her core - but from the start, she was adapted to me and what I enjoyed imagining on my daily walks, rather than sticking rigidly to the show character. In general she's a lot more laid back, but she loves to share in my passions, especially to encourage me to stretch my boundaries and grow. She takes pride in her position as half of the loving dyad that makes up my inner life and serves her role faithfully, as do I.

Just a little ramble: I think tulpamancy is best understood as a collection of techniques - actions. The techniques are effective regardless of what belief system you attach them to. Kind of like how a button is an effective tool for triggering things, regardless of what mechanism it triggers, or what color the button is. People who say things like "I don't do tulpa stuff, I just kind of talk with her sometimes" are still doing the same action, just explaining it to themselves with different words. When someone takes an interest in interacting with this stuff, rather than starting from scratch and trying to find every button, they could find tulpamancy and learn where all these buttons are. In the same way, someone who knows the techniques can teach them to someone using different language. Mostly, people are only allergic to the language, but very receptive to the essence of the technique, unless they start thinking "oh shit this sounds like tulpa stuff oh fuck".

mentally imposed thought forms < psychic medium and premonition talking at god < conversing with god and exchanging spiritual energy neurotypicals < NDNB users Celestia 4 lyfe

I know it's not real, but I like pretending I have a pony waifu. Ironically, it helps me cope with reality.

>>14504 >Celestia 4 lyfe I don't know about the rest of that, but I can sure get behind this. >>14739 We all wish we could be closer to the ponies.

How can I maintain focus on a tulpa waifu when there are distractio s due to work and everyday life?

Been a whole since I checked up on this thread, apologies for the extended delay. >>14785 Practice, of course. Even mentally strenuous jobs have lots of free moments that you can fill with tulpa thoughts. You can say hello and hug each other on the walk to the bathroom, or while you have lunch. Unfortunately you can only really focus on one thing at a time, and some things must take priority over others. You can decide what you prioritize, though, so don't get yourself down thinking about what you're missing when you could be thinking about your tulpa instead. >>14739 This is the essence of the practice. Coping with reality means you can face it directly, means you can see reality better, reveals that coping and the methods one uses to cope are real. "Pretending" is only a matter of perspective, and the perspective of a tulpamancer is that there is no such thing as pretending, only creating.